I am my biggest enemy, I don’t forgive or forget.
I hurt people to their very core especially the ones who love and care for me the most.
I have my set of insecurities and frustrations but communication skills is what I lack.
I’m not bipolar, my life isn’t shit, but I think I like being miserable.
I’ve been lying to myself all this time about what I want cuz what I want makes me happy and soon gets me even more miserable.
I kick every opportunity in the groin and cry about it later.
I don’t really want to be an artist, but trying to be one gives me the best excuse to be miserable.
I’m too afraid to dream out of fear of achieving them and later discarding them to be miserable.
IF I CONTINUE I stand to be very miserable by succeeding at throwing away whatever I have.
I realize now, unlike novels my life isn’t fiction.
God our Father, help me, I’m now ready to come back, I realize now all that I have lost and what I stand to lose.
I love you mamma. I’ll be a better son.